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Everyone thinks I am such a happy person and that I have it all together. What they don't know is that I'm dying on the inside. I don't have it all together. I'm falling apart.

Estrés

Estrés, estudiar, leer, dieta, adelgazar, dormir, vomitar, comer, descansar, estudiar, comer, no comer, estrés, escribir, repasar, estrés, dieta, bulimia, dormir, no dormir, soñar, vomitar, cenar, gritar, morir, estrés, nadar, estudiar, estrés, morir, comer, bulimia, estrés, estudiar, dormir, morir.

Regret

¿Cuándo dejaré de sentirme arrepentida?

Please God take me away with you

Please God, please take me away with you. I want to go to heaven, I want to be happy, I just want to lay in your arms forever I want you to hug me and protect me I want to be by your side I'm not happy in this world I know you gave me this life for something but I just can't figure it out I just want to die and go with you I don't want to live anymore because even though I have everything I need I just can't be happy and I know that if you take me if you make me die and if you take me to heaven with you I will be happy for the eternity I can't commit suicide because I can't take away what you gave me I can't just give you back this present I just can't and then I would go to hell if I get rid of my life but I can't stand it anymore I'm begging you please please please take me where there's no sadness where there's joy forever please God take me

Death

No me importaría morirme ahorita :(

Triste

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¿Por qué? No hay razón para estar así deprimida, sin ganas de nada... No debo estar así, pero no puedo evitarlo, tengo tantas ganas de llorar que no puedo soportarlo.

Corazón de piedra

I'm holding on your rope got me ten feet off the ground, and i'm hearing what you say but i just can't make a sound, you tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down, but wait, you tell me that you're sorry, didn't think i'd turn around and say that it's too late to apologize, it's too late, i said it's too late to apologize, it's too late. I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you, and i need you like a heart needs a beat, but that's nothing new, i loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue, and you say sorry like an angel, heaven let me think was you, but i'm afraid it's too late to apologize, it's too late, i said it's too late to apologize, it's too late..

Por sobre todas las cosas cuida tu corazón porque de él mana la vida. Proverbios 4:23

How could I ever trust you again? You hurt me, and you hurt me bad. And you'll continue doing it, I know it, and that's the worst part about it, because I love you and I won't let you go. Because I'm so used to you, you are everything to me, and I can't imagine my life without you. I have so many plans that include you, we dreamt our life together, remember? So why? Tell me why you keep doing it!? You know it hurts so deep inside me! You are the reason I have low self esteem! You are the reason I'm insecure! So please tell me HOW CAN I TRUST YOU? What should I do? Tell me, please tell me.